Haaay..malapit na examination week namin..tapos andaming kelangang aralin..waaaa..toxic, as they say..nosebleed daw yun..puro mga terminologies na wala sa aking bokubularyo..Pinipiga na ang aking utak sa daming mga aasikasuhin..sa mga problema sa skul, sa bahay, sa mga ibang commitments ko..

Well, wala na 'ko pwedeng gawin kundi mag-pray..pinasok ko yun e..well, ung iba kelangan lang talaga kasi walang ibang gagawa nun kundi ako..Pero the pressure is really pressing down on me..

I need someone to talk to..buti nalang andyan si Lord..It's funny pero I enjoy reading the Campus Journal..kahit na noon noon pa yung issue na yun..I suddenly find myself laughing dahil sa may na-realize ako na isang mahalagang bagay - Andyan parin talaga si Lord na gumagabay sakin..Kahit na akala andaming problema..He's still there..

Even with these struggles, I choose to still live this life..Kahit na mabigat na..Sige parin..It's part of my responsibility..

Pero please..pray for me parin..God Bless You Reader..

Whew..nakakaburn out na..andaming pinapagawa sakin..I'm lucky to be still standing..I mean sitting here and typing this post..

Simula nung Monday, July 3 I think, i felt so weak. Physically, that is..Very unusual kasi kakagising ko palang pero parang I'm gasping for air..Ewan ko kung bakit..As the day progressed, I began to feel na pati ata ung spirit ko bumabagsak na din..I'm failing, I said to myself..Hotheaded, impatient..Top 2 sa aking mga negatives..Aba nagpaparamdam..

At about 7pm, punta muna ICACF for the regular Youth Leaders' Meeting..And then it struck me, and it struck me hard..ptr. Gener shared something about us going into a state of weakness and that we should be prepared..actually un din ung topic na shinare ni Dyan..siya ung facilitator e..pero mas napa-isip ako dun sa mga sinabi ni Ptr. Gener..ung umaandar sa utak ko parang ganito: "that sunk deep..boy is he right about that.." Sabi ni Ptr Gener pati na rin sina Ta Oss, we should prepare for those days para ready parin.. Looks like the enemy sent me an advanced party to attack..And guess what..i was caught off guard..

Mula nun, medyo nagkaloko-loko ako..hanggang ngayon..and i've been continuously seeing weakness around me..pero I'm still thankful kasi nakakabangon na ko ngayon..a little more effort at malalagpasan ko na..pero masaya ako sa ganitong state..Kasi alam ko na God is still on my side kasi may trials e..

And when there are trials, that means He's still working in me..

Pero I'll still need those prayers coz they're a BIG help.. thank you very much..God Bless You Reader..